Yeidi's World

Since I'm going easy on myself for my first Art Fight, I went for an OC that I would have the least amount of hurdles to translate to "my style" (whatever that is).

Her name is Oria and she has such a cute design! It was a whole pleasure :3

Preview.

I am nervous :^) But excited!
I talked about it in an earlier post, but it's official now. After a couple of years of being aware of its existence (and forgetting to take part ), I officially joined Art Fight e this year! (Here's my profile in case you wanna have a look!)

Art Fight is a month-long event where participants are divided into two teams. Starting on July, players "attack" each other by creating art of original characters that belong to opposing players. The art is scored and the team with the most points wins. It's all for funsies, practice, skill-honing, and community-building.

I didn't want to use my story OCs because I'm still working out vital details regarding their canon. So I decided reach back into my youth brain and revive some older oc's.
I ended up picking Penelope out of the old bunch and finally updated her ~after many years of neglect.  The hardest part was settling on a specific outfit that went well with her general shape but would also make sense for her personality and profession. I didn't want to just slap a cloak on her because I had a specific vibe in mind already.

Oh, and the boots were challenging too, but good practice. As a boot-lover, I would like to do more boot angle studies!

Ultimately, after much trial and error I managed to make her an official character sheet! It's the first character sheet I put together, and It's not as complete as I would like it to be. I'd like to add a view of her back and side later. Regardless, still happy I got it done.

I wrote up a little profile for her in her art fight page, but I added it under the cut alongside her character sheet. 

So! Okay! First of all, yes, hello, hi hi, *insert expectations of polite greetings here*, ok! SO! 

I've been following my heart lately when it comes to how I spend time on the World Wide Web and I think it's led to decent results and I want to yap about it.

Website Time Spending

It started with me inspecting my experience within internet culture through the decades I've spent in virtual spaces.

I think a lot about my internet eras actually (and maybe I'll write about it at length at some point) but the relevant thing is that I was not liking how my frequently visited internet spaces were making me feel.

For context, I was using instagram mostly.

On one hand, while ig has had *SEVERE* downgrades throughout the years, it still provides a connection to my loved ones from home in PR. It's also undoubtedly one of the biggest primary hubs for visual artists (especially art pro's I'd like to network with.)

On the other hand,... late stage capitalism SUCKS. The social culture in IG proves to be too intense for me time and time again. I either don't feel "productive enough" or "cool enough" or "performative enough", which leads me to get depressed about not being able keep up with my peers there. It also feeds me addictive content that I don't want to prioritize in my day-to-day. And either way, it doesn't connect me with peers in the way that I envision.


Social Anxiety

That's not even mentioning the effects instagram has had on my social anxiety. I get stuck in an endless cycle of not having the spoons to answer DM's, and then I feel guilt for taking long, and then I just keep putting it off, and making it worse, and getting it in my head that everyone hates me, and UGH. 

I miss the days when people weren't always connected, always online. I miss snail mail letters and packages.  I miss AIM/MSN messenger where you just logged in when you felt like chatting, and logged out when you got tired.  I miss having only a trusted few people possessing access to me through phone texting. I miss personal e-mails! 


Relaxing in Tumblr

Anyway! For the sake of nurturing my self-expression, I've been spending a lot of time in other websites tending to silly semi-secret hobby-based tumblr blogs.

This has really helped me sort of shake loose some self-imposed restrictions, and it has let me take things less seriously. My vendetta against perfectionism has grown more spite with every passing day. I will repeat myself whenever possible: perfectionism is such a huge damper on self-expression!

A nice byproduct of hanging out in silly little hobby blogs has been that I feel like I'm developing new ways to maneuver my art-related accounts. Instead of focusing what I "should" be doing, I am trying to do what works for me specifically.

I don't know where my internet path will lead in regards to professionalism, but for what it's worth:

My Art & Personal Tumblr: (yeidi.tumblr.com) I've converted my art tumblr to Art&Yaps. I just want to connect with people! And overthinking my main account makes me want to use it less. On top of posting art, I'll also use this tumblr to post musings, crafts, and other creative endeavors. More importantly I want to reblog stuff to support my peers instead of overthinking it. So here be my main tumblr is where I would like to connect with other artists! Now, if I only knew how to make friends... 

My Just-Art Tumblr: (yeidisworld.tumblr.com) I'll just reblog stuff here. This is what people can follow if they don't want anything to do with my yaps and just want to see my illustrations.

Alright! That's it for now! I'm done tinkering around this post! *HITS! POST!*

I can find it in me to understand that there are people who enjoy joining creator-based communities on Discord, but honestly I'm so tired of it! 

( Ramble Ramble Ramble! )